August 24, 2009

I wonder where I will be a year from today. I wonder what I will be like, and how or even if I’ve changed. I wonder if I will be happy. I wonder who I’ll be friends with, and who I managed to keep in touch with from my past. These are some things that have been running through my mind as my final days in my hometown are going by.

I know that most people are probably feeling sadness and excitement as they are about to embark upon a new journey, and so am I. I spent so many days in the beginning of year sporting that look of a deer standing in road of senior year, caught in the headlights of college indecision. Now, here I am, with only five days left before I leave home to start over.

I’m excited. I feel that I am ready to try new things and to gain new life experiences. I cannot wait to meet new people and see new places. I’m excited for that independence that I have been asking for for the past couple of years.

I’m scared. I know that that independence that I will get will come with great responsibility that I fear at times I’m not ready for.

I’m sad. I have never been a fan of goodbyes. I’m not quite sure how to say goodbye to the people who helped make me who I am today. They are the people I love and the people I will carry in my heart wherever I go.

But I know farewells and new beginnings are all part of life. I know that somehow I will make it okay.

I know that somehow we’ll all make it okay.